The Falling Maples- Living Unconditionally- Poetry by S.S

(c) Shilpa Sandesh When you stand in front of the mirror, Your image you won't see, As it would be none, But a reflection of me, And a proof it would be, That yours I am, I am yours, Those bounds no one can invade, Inside those bounds reside, Our souls, yours and mine, Forever and till eternity.... 

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Your words are like the arrows, Arrows of raptures of love, Overflowing with blissful zeal, Like a sudden burst of a volcano, A volcano of the white and pure, Ashes of yearning, And with your expressions, You win me every time, You've won me again........ 

(c) Shilpa Sandesh It's beautiful, To fall in love with you, Every passing moment, To let the urges be on fire, To let the heart play it's own songs, The songs of longing, It's beautiful, To have found you, To have discovered the rarest gem, To have unsheathed the secret de amor, It's beautiful, To pen not pain Not sorrows, Not miseries, But love and yearning, Every passing day, It's beautiful, Our love, our togetherness, That's one of its kind, It's beautiful........ 

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Prophesies penned  since a thousand decades, That the Blood Moon would bring, Cataclysm and alluvion, Why? I know not, neither do my heart, Wishes to know! Because, For me, this beauteous astral luminescence, The magnificent red, Glowing like a million red roses, Sprinkled with glitters and gleam, Is a message from him, Written with the ink of his soul, "I adore you my Dear one, I felt your tears in my eyes, My heart ached with your heart in stings, Weep no more, your pain isn't yours alone, Let me walk along" And I scribble my words on the beautiful Blood Moon, "I miss you most today, Come hither, hold my hand, Let me forget my piqued heart, In the warmth of your embrace"........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Perspiring and breathless, Sniffing the humid sea breeze, We jog, we talk, we laugh over sweet nothings, I put my earphones on For that latest song As you snatch it from me With raised eyebrows, My irritation evident You plant a kiss on my lips, And there goes the agitation, Lost in the sea gust; I run and run, And realise I had been running alone, And then a sudden gush of air Storm the inside of me My beloved I love you for sending Your kisses filled with your fragrance As they find me running solitary Across the oceans and the seas......... 

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Walking solitary, On the dank coastal sand, I observe a pair of footsteps, That accompany mine, And so I realize, To be physically together in love, Is necessary, But it is not everything, Because when the love is true, Deep and profound, Lovers hold hands without being together, Lovers kiss each other, without being together, Lovers feel each others presence, without being together, Just like, I am there besides you, While you drive your car, Humming our favorite song, And You are with me, here, Walking on the wet beach sand, Without being with me, Without us being together.......

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Mi amor I am the wall That stands midst Hurdles and you, I am those chants Which would absorb All your pain And give you Those immortal smiles, My life Oh love, Has meaning Since you happened to me Amongst all situations of our being Let our love forever be.... 

(c) Shilpa Sandesh I remember, We just began our walk, Hands in hands, on a fiery path, Where there are no golden maples, Scattered beneath our steps, But pines and thorns ornate our ingress, Into the gates of the Abode of Seraphic Lovers, We've held each other firm so far, And my grip fastens with every step; This walk, which once seemed like an ordeal, Has now become a gratifying tramp, Where pines seem as soft as rose petals, And my bleeding feet seem, Like being washed with  Heaven's nectar; Leave not my hand, Let any spell bind you, Leave not this tread, For I would forget to walk, And there would be but just one spell, One spell that I would master, A spell that I would cast on myself, On how to invite the demons, To feast on me, And all that would be left for you to see, Would be some bones, some blood, And the chains, Which the demons tied me with........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh I am the iceberg, In the frozen lands of nowhere, I waited, Amidst the blizzards and the snow flurries, I stood stiffened under the spell of the ice, Like a humming bird, Imprisoned behind the bleak bars; The moment arrived, A sudden wind of warmth, Melted my prison's peripheral surface, And I saw you riding on a silver horse, Like a prince of the Newfound land, I see you still, Striding towards me, To unlock the doors of this dungeon, I am blue with cold, My breaths loosing pace with time, Approach me soonest I plead, be mine, I have fallen on my knees, I can stand no more, I await your warm embrace, That would, Melt me down, And free I would be, From what seems to be beauty to the eyes, From this, which veritably is the forbidden prison of ice..........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh I have been the destiny's Favourite child, When karma ruled my being, Life's all aspects, I seem to have seen, A moment after numerous miseries, I lifted a step, To walk on the sea, Knowing that no one, Has tread on the blue spread, I knew I would drown, But still, I was urged to stride ahead, And just when I was to fall, And be one with the sea, You pulled me back, Like an angel, emerging from a bright light, My seer, You are for me, My everything, Without you, there's nothing, A fear grips me, numbing my entire self, And I shrink to become a fate's tiny elf, To say I need you, are just three aligned words, My Wizard, I love you, You are all that matters, Leave me not, forget me not, For then, I would be no more...........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Let me Oh love! Let me see you for once, For once in my barren dreams, My barren dreams of sorrowful streams, The sorrowful streams of demons and screams, Screams, which awaken me every night, Every night from a nightmarish sleep, Sleep...... I wish to sleep....... I wish to dream..... To see that blaze, that seraphic beam, The doors are open, They would always be, For the one, the one who is You, So reprieve not my Beloved, Step into my withered dreams, I await that divine sheen, Step into my withered dreams........  

(c) Shilpa Sandesh, Oh light of my life, A poetess I am, I originate from your love, I smile, I weep, I laugh, When I write, Because as I do so, My physical self, with a pen and a paper, Is a mere illusion to the one who espies me, For my inner self merges, With the scenario in creation, The schema wherein, Are you and I, And the quarantine silence, The silence that is, The unspoken, the tranquil love........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Heartache.... Catastrophe, miseries, Tribulations, Exuberance, Elation, vivacity, Merriment, A journey,  I sustained, From far away to far away, I wrote twinge, afflictions, And heap of throes; An excursion that began, when I first opened my eyes, And soon a whirl it was, A ride from pampers and coddles, To false attractions and falser desires; An angel watched, From far afield earth, I had read about the God sent, They have eyes like gems, A smile like Messiah's, Sacrosanct expressions, And cherubic accent; I wondered, "Who be the blessed ones, Whom the angel would meet?" Least did I know, My ride of hitch and spins, Was turning into a joyride, Of supreme grace, For, The angel, You, found me, And glorified I am, As I look into your eyes, Your divine glare permeates the whole of me, And drink the expressions, Of your ethereal face, And, My quest ends at you........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh On the pages, Of the book called Life, Where a prolonged past lies, With an abundance of miseries, And extinct smiles, I step onto the coliseum of contemporaneous; As I begin to perform my song of sorrows, From among the audience, Audience, the guilty, the liable of my anguish, A cheer distracts,  The hail that changed the lyrics of my song, And from melancholy and woes, Delirium ruled my vocal chords; And soon I realized, There you were, The sole symbol of solace, In the gaggle of the symbols of disharmony, And I stood singing, smitten, I knew, Lines on my palm were being recast, My destiny was being rewritten.........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh I had promised to my soul, That I would cry no more, But I am sorry, The sobs just don't stop.... The tears just won't stop..... A heart that was, is still a heart, It's not a prey, On which you aim your dart, It hurts, it scars, And it leaves me wounded, And for a moment I feel, I feel like that fairy tale princess, A princess, trapped behind the golden bars! Let me stand in the rain, So that I wouldn't know I'm crying, And no tear shall remain a tear, Every drop shall turn into rain; Oh but my soul! I promise I won't cry, I would cry no more, And I would fight the tears, To keep the promise forevermore....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh The hymns, The chants, The psalm of affection, And the carol of love....... Engrossed in his anticipation, Mind theorizing the perception, Soul ruminating the feelings, And heart, Heart innervating the pleasures; My eyes catch sight of a marigold, Blooming yellow and orange, Fifty beauteous petals, First pluck.......He loves me, Another pluck.....He loves me more, Another pluck......His love is bounteous, Pluck.....Plucks......the last petal reached, As the fingers advance, To pick that final petiole, The warm breaths and a whisper, Brushes against my ear, And in his faintly seductive voice says, "The last petal, The last petal says, I love you infinitely!"

(c) Shilpa Sandesh You be the zephyr, While I be the twig, In awe of your drift, As you lift me, From my dolorous being, And take me along in your flux, To the uncharted lands, Of jillion blessings, And measureless love, Where you would be the Adam, And I be your Eve, Where there will be no Satan, To send us on the journey of seeking, That we've suffered for births; And then we would be, Untouched by the karma, Guarded by the angels, Never to be parted, And to stay, Together forever!

(c) Shilpa Sandesh I know not, Why this restlessness, Is encompassing the inner me, All my heart can cease, Is that, it misses the voice of thee, This stride I know, Is a tumultuous one, It calls for a patient walk, It favors no hasty run; But, I am still consumed, By this restlessness, Never did I know, To settle my inner self, Would be like heart and soul, In a row; I feel at peace, but I am not, It is thy need, a compulsion, It's our destinies' most beauteous plot; I am restless still, The nerves in my head, Seem hysteric too! Your breaths flow in my veins, But without you close to me, They are jittery and fretful; I am restless, At this moment, I know no patience, No perseverance I acknowledge, Tell me what is endurance, Or courage or persistence! Turbulent I feel, I am restless........ Fitful I am, I am restless........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh ....Stay.....Stay by the window.... The Moon whispers, Till the dawn rises, Till the dusk vanishes, Stay........ These stars are forming a bow, A path so virile, Step onto the curve of dynamism, Hearken the sound of the wind, Conceive the images, That the passing clouds design, For The Stars are the flowers, He sent for me The wind is the words, He conveys to me, And  The clouds are the verses, He writes for me.......... And so I stay.......... I stay by the window, As long as the night sways....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh One more day has passed, Some more moments have bygone, All my eyes yearned for, Is a sight of you, All my arms crave for, Is to take you in their embrace, But joyous I am for the time that's past, Because only now, Our moments of togetherness shall come..........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh And our love is, The envy of the Greek Gods, For zealous they are, Of our birth in this eon........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh She plays, hums and she sings,  The tunes of seraphic hymns, Fingers on the frets, Pneuma reaches the alpine heights, Against the destiny and karma, Conscience wins the fight, And in the lustrous Heavenly beam, She becomes the Cupid's delight....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh With much Joy, And elated glee, I greet the Twilight, For a new day would dawn, And so would another dusk, As they are not  Just the days and the nights, But the steps of the ladder, Which lead me to thee................

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Dreamers' retreat, A thousand pens, Expressions unbound, A Poet I came, Found Love, Incessant, infinite....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh As you smile, Oh that beam.... I see a million meteors, Descending from the vast azure; As you laugh, The celestial sphere flares up, Like a star stepping, In the red giant phase; A drop of tear, On the corner of your eyes, Leaves the clouds clamour, the deafening thunders, In the twilight sky; And Oh that mischievous grin, Like a flash flood, Of wanton teasing, Sends the waves of zeal, In my restless veins; And Oh, You catch my gaze, And I pose innocent and naive, And then we cackle and giggle, Only to find ourselves, In each others, Calming Eternal embrace....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh There you stand solo, On the white sands of a distant beach,  While I poise alone, With my miserable heart, In the porch facing the sea; The saline breeze there sheathes you, As the wind here caress my frame, Letting the twilight pass, Until the new dawn, Fondled by, Sprinkles and splash, Of the rain and the drizzles, I fear to leave the portico, For I want not to be devoid, Of that smallest particle in the wind, And that tiniest drop of the rain, Which has touched you moments before, Feeling my silver skin; With dewy eyes and heavy heart, I wish I could be there, We would sit in the night's cold sand, My head resting on your shoulders, Our bodies warm with the closeness, With eyes closed, Tuning into the accent of the waves, We would let the briny whiff, Whisk against our cheeks; I am awakened, awakened he is, By the knock of the merciless moments, As we envisage the distances which be; But comforted is my inner self, When

(c) Shilpa Sandesh One step forth, Few swim strokes, Trespass through the woods, Intruding haunted graveyards, Where spirits roam sharp and shrewd, Daring the cimmerian night, When drooping, It spreads its wings, To take a hasty flight, The cloudbursts drenching It down, Now dragging for Its wings are soaked, Almost there, there I can see, There you stand,  As It wins the journey, And holds your hands; It..... 'It' is not a warrior, 'It' is not a knight, 'It' be my soul, 'It' be my subconscious self, That leaves my mortal frame, Every night, To meet thy élan vital....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Seasons, Numerous morning Suns, Countless Starry nights, Unquenchable Karmas and births, I have loved you since time immemorial; Braving the floods and torrents, Counting all the shooting stars, Searching and seeking, Walking past the wild-woods and thickets, I have loved you since time immemorial; Faced a thousand deaths, For a zillion times, I stood at the gates of Heaven and Hell, Only to be reborn, And seek you again, Oh my love..... I have loved you since time immemorial, To Love you till time immemorial.....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh A helpless self, Knowing not how to swim, When half of me is in water, And the other half, On the brink to get whelmed, Failing on my breaths, Like dying a slow death; Oh, this is my portrait, When I don't hear from you, For longer than what I can bear, And My beloved, I need to devour your voice, Every second and everywhere, Because it's not the air, That keeps me alive, But the sound of your voice........

(c) Shilpa Sandesh There's a string of pearls, Inside my heart, Which binds it with yours, And every pearl speaks to me, As I miss you every hour; "He's the one, The one you sought, Then what makes you, Adrift in dismal thoughts?" "Oh you beauty, You fair pearl I miss him, He be my heart's Duke, my earl!" "My dainty lady, He craves for you even more, He sheds no tear, But to lose you, is his biggest fear" "I know my little snowy jewels, But I know not how to rival this void, Every particle of the universe, In such moments, seem so cruel" "Patience Oh our fair dame, It would bear the sweetest fruit, In his embrace you shall be, You would soon be led, To the beauteous true love's route" "This ache, the wanting, Denies me perseverance, My body awaits it's soul, And the devoir of him, is fiercely haunting"

(c) Shilpa Sandesh If the nights could know,  The silent yearning  Of this soul in love,  There would be no dusk ; If the days could know,  The chaotic shrill,  Of this soul in love,  There would be no dawn; My head would bow,  A million times,  To thank thee my Lord,  That You made the moon,  The stars, the sun and the breeze,  For these are the messengers of love,  There mere brush convinces my soul,  Into a temporal ease....  

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Amidst those smirks and simpers, Making its way,  through the crazy grins, A cosmic union of two distant souls, Is dawning; Our verses are one, So are our quintessences, And our images are carved, In each others hearts, By those very modest grins; Let me sculpt our moments, Moments when we are apart, Moments when we be one, Into an immortal sculpture, Or Let me chisel our names, On pebbles, And stones, And crystals, Or let me just etch my heart, In yours, My beloved, We are no Apollo and Daphne, Or Clytie and Helios, We are You and I, Striding on the maple sheathed path, Of Our Perennial Love....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Sometimes all I wish, Is to silently crawl, And invade that beautiful mind, And fathom, What you think, When you look at me, With a tender gaze, Delightful expressions, And a smile, That I would die for!

(c) Shilpa Sandesh The Longing, To see your angel face, While you are asleep, And I plead the night to pass, In the most dawdling pace; The Longing, To see you wake up, Open those eyes, the ethereal gems, And look at me, as I stare at you, Beseeching the moment, To freeze; The Longing, To hold your hand, As I bend closer, To Kiss you on forehead, And break the bewitching silence, To say, I  Love You....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Ever heard of two souls talk? Well they do, And this is how they converse, When they are in love, And the love, Love, that is a gift from the verses: "Oh love! I know not what to say, I go weak with every word you express, God! This is all that my lips can utter, As my words loose themselves, And in your eyes they sway." "My Wizard, mention nothing, Convey no words, Respond not to my expressions, Keep those phrases enclosed, Say nothing, Say no more, Because when you utter nothing, You say it all" "My life you are, Abandon me not, Reckless my whole self would be, I would forever be, Callous and cold" "Oh my enchanter,  Since that dawn when my words found you, I am just a body, As my soul resides in you with yours, When you hold my hands, I feel like the owner, Of the planet of gold; When your lips kiss mine, I feel like a billionaire; And when I am in your embrace, I feel like the queen of At

(c) Shilpa Sandesh The morrow breeze whispers, mumbles, An epistle, your message, From across the seas; The first ray of the Sun Brushes on my cheeks, A touch of your palm, From across the seas; Heat of the noon, Burns my frame, It's your warmth, From across the seas; The rising dusk,  Th e twilight, I feel the sighs, From across the seas; The midnight's moon, Scatters it's luminescence,  Butterflies on my lips, Its the kisses blown, From across the seas; The sleep, the repose, Dreams of togetherness, It's the spell cast on me, From across the seas....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh I have been the last page, Of that blessed book, You began to read, A long time ago, I awaited the read, The hour when you would, Flip through me,  I, who felt like an unlettered page; Engrossed you were, In apprehending that came first, Or Inquisitive you were, Seeking me, your haven verso; And the moment arrived, When you resolved, To end your read, And you turned, To the very last page; I feel your eyes, As they interpret my very self, Word by word, Like a colloquy, Of the eyes with words; And beatified I am, Resurrected I feel, As You resolve, To be committed forever till infinity, To me,  For I be your book's last page.

(c) Shilpa Sandesh As I walk, on the beatific path, My feet are caught and painfully restrained, As I cry for help, I glance at the sky, Oh I am the revered, Of the Demon's eye; I need you my Seer, My Wizard, My God, Pull me away, From the Devil's clutch, And relieve me of, The throbbing stings, This harrowing quelch!

(c) Shilpa Sandesh No mercy shall be sought, No pity desired, The two would meld, Blend like river and the sea, When fire would rule, The arch of amour, And the flames of passion, Enlighten, The mirth of Love....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Blink of an eye, And in the Hellenic era, We alight, Our love,  So pellucid and bright; I breathe in the heaven, Of azure bliss, An empyrean of dreams, And eternal rest; But I wish no more, Of the glory, And the pearly gates, I wing towards You, My Adonis, As I be your Aphrodite....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh Embracing bodies, Blending breaths, Fingers entwined, Tenaciously clinching, The Hour to be one, Is here....

(c) Shilpa Sandesh My Soul.... Hiked across the densest of the dense woods, Swam athwart the deepest of the deep seas, Flew beyond the highest of the blue spread above; Exasperated and broken down, It was set to collapse; But then.... A mystical, ambrosial power, The blissful, Your soul, Your soul held mine, And I stirred; As the world turned me, Into a heap of hay, An existence in vain, A tree which saw, It's leaves dry, You My Love, Emerged like my gardener, And as you would water me, Forever tender I would be; The wait was long, As long as it could be, I locked away my love, Hid in the deepness of my heart, For now I know, It was meant to be, Showered upon none but You; Oh My Love, I have known you, Not since a day or days or months or years, I have known you, Since even before I existed, I am no slave to these breaths, Nor to this life, For I would be with you, Like your shadow, Till Eternity....