An Apology to Myself

From the deepest depths,
Of my stricken self,
From where emerge,
Countless realizations,

 I apologize to myself,

 "I am sorry, my beloved soul,
For seeking truth midst the material,
For believing in the worldly dreams,
And forcing you into howl and screams,
For giving you hope of truthful affections,
And making you suffer bitter dejection,
I am sorry,,,,"

 The tides have turned,
And the course has changed,
Once and for all,
The doors are forever closed,
I can no more challenge,
My inner peace........

(c) S.S



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